[it might be more accurate to say he stopped liking people, but either way, he kind of gets it. Maybe they just had different ways of isolating themselves.]
( it's not that she's shocked to hear it — people have always taken hyunsu for granted, and treated him like garbage. it's just surprising to hear him say anything negative, when he's usually so passive. )
no that's bullshit you became a monster because we needed you everyone owed you a huge debt everyone everyone
( if feeling things was enough to be a monster, then eunyu would've succumbed to monsterization in the first weeks. she's sad, all the time — sad, angry, frustrated, and mean. but she wouldn't have spared a second for the families in green home, she wouldn't have done their chores, or found their shit, or fought their demons, or agreed to go silently into confinement for all her effort. hyunsu did. they should've kissed the ground he walked on. )
you became a monster because you're better suited to helping people you're the best person for the job. i believe that fuck everyone else
[Hyunsu had never really thought of it that way before. He's not sure how accurate it is, based on how monsterization works and on the early hallucinations his own monster tried to tempt him with. But he's not Eunhyuk who might be inclined to pick apart any perceived logical fallacies.
All he knows is that no one else ever seemed to have this much faith in him. He doesn't want to talk her out of it. It would be like throwing away a gift.]
( "saved" feels like it's doing a lot of work in that sentence — eunyu didn't really do anything but give him the time of day, which was less because she knew what a good person he was, or how important to her he'd become, and more because he was very, very handsome. and because the impulse to jump off a rooftop is maybe something she can understand, a little. )
you give me way too much credit
i wish you would stand up for yourself even here but even if you can't, i will
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i've never been on a date before
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Really?
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( that's not something new, because of the apocalypse. )
well
i didn't like anyone, i mean
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oh.
i didn't either.
[it might be more accurate to say he stopped liking people, but either way, he kind of gets it. Maybe they just had different ways of isolating themselves.]
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( it's not that she's shocked to hear it — people have always taken hyunsu for granted, and treated him like garbage. it's just surprising to hear him say anything negative, when he's usually so passive. )
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i was hurt and angry.
[at the world and also at himself. it's not the sort of thing he normally talks about, but it's not hard to open up to eunyu.]
i think that's why i became a monster.
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you became a monster because we needed you
everyone owed you a huge debt
everyone everyone
( if feeling things was enough to be a monster, then eunyu would've succumbed to monsterization in the first weeks. she's sad, all the time — sad, angry, frustrated, and mean. but she wouldn't have spared a second for the families in green home, she wouldn't have done their chores, or found their shit, or fought their demons, or agreed to go silently into confinement for all her effort. hyunsu did. they should've kissed the ground he walked on. )
you became a monster because you're better suited to helping people
you're the best person for the job. i believe that
fuck everyone else
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All he knows is that no one else ever seemed to have this much faith in him. He doesn't want to talk her out of it. It would be like throwing away a gift.]
thank you, eunyu.
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you don't owe me any thanks
thank YOU, hyunsu
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you saved me before monsters even became a problem.
[She's the reason he didn't jump off the roof right after moving in.]
and you're the only person to ever tell me to stand up for myself.
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you give me way too much credit
i wish you would stand up for yourself
even here
but even if you can't, i will
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i got distracted yelling at you
are you secretly really good at bowling?
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i don't think so.
are you?
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i will eat a lot of nachos though
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or maybe an american style hamburger.
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don't get more excited about eating than going on a date with me
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i wouldn't.
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( dork )
when should we?
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[...is that too eager? Oh well, at least there's no question that he's excited about it.]
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( what the Fuck does someone wear on a bowling date )
meet up there? or at the room
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The room is more convenient, right?
[they both live there! And then they can walk together.]
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( less time to freak out over what to wear.......excellent...... )
okay
i'm kind of nervous?
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[that's fair, actually, he sort of is too, though he doesn't know why because it's eunyu, and there's no one he trusts more than eunyu.]
would you feel better if we met there?
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i'm just nervous about the date. it's dumb
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